There was a time when I wished I worked from home; no longer having to leave the warmth of my bed so early in the morning. I never really thought it would be an option until I hit retirement age, yet here I sit, no longer waking to an alarm.
I’ve been forced into early retirement as I can no longer drive for safety reasons.
The first time it happened, I remember waking up in the ambulance, the attendants asking if I knew where I was and how I got there. The second time I didn’t come to until I was in the Emergency Room. They were telling me I had yet another seizure, I knew and understood the process; I struggled to accept that it was happening to me.
I’ve spent a lifetime living as healthily as I could thinking my choices would lead to a long life void of prescription medicines. Initially it was hard for me to accept this was happening to me. It took two more episodes and an in-depth meeting with my doctor, before considering seizure medication.
The diagnoses was disappointing to me, things certainly could be worse. I’m lucky I have a supportive husband who is working with me to bridge the gap and find a new normal in our lives. I no longer work out of the home, instead I’ve been given what I had wished for and lost my independence in return.
My one regret is that I’ve become a burden to those in my life as they make changes to accommodate me. I regret that I’ve lost a sense of freedom to come and go on my own.
While seizures are a serious condition, it hasn’t stopped me from trying to find a new normal and routine. I’m still adjusting to the changes in my life, accepting that I need assistance with simple things.
Your meds should keep you going..I have had seizures too (although induced by poor life choices), but its all gone now. Dont worry.. this too shall pass 🙂
Thank you so much for commenting as I’ve struggled with this diagnosis. I know it isn’t the worse diagnosis I could have; it has taken time to identify as someone who isn’t completely healthy.